Today’s blog is a little different, a little shorter. I’m taking Bob Goff’s Writing Course, and I wrote this after we were given our first assignment. So here it is:
I looked over at my dog, Cosby, 65 pounds of fur and love, and I knew what was coming next. It always starts out as him getting up and high stepping like a Tennessee Walker. Then, he falls over and his whole body begins to seize. You can’t stop seizures; there is no preventing what is happening. You just have to wait for it to pass and hold him tight. He knows if someone is there with him, and in the midst of his seizing he knows if you get up and leave him.
I’ve been the person to get up and leave before. Sometimes it just feels too hard to watch, knowing there is nothing I can do to stop what’s happening. I leave and let my sister or parents take care of him. As the years have passed, I’ve grown more accustomed to his epilepsy. I don’t get up and leave although I want to. I just sit there with him.
And I find myself asking God on my hard days if He has gotten up and walked away in the midst of my seizing, in the midst of my desire to take control. Is it too hard for Him to watch us when we choose the world over Him more often than not?
I used to think the harder I fought falling out on the ground, the more power I had. Now I’m seeing on days where I feel like I can’t pick myself up off the floor, God is there lying with me. He’s holding me close, pulling me in and not letting me go, even if after the seizing has finished.
Mary Spencer Veazey 
Well done, God is our loving constant companion!
LikeLiked by 2 people
Thank you very much!! He truly is; no one more constant than Him!
LikeLiked by 1 person
Girl – this is such a great blog. Interestingly enough – I’ve seized. When I did – in the park at Disney – a stranger walked up to my co-workers and said “here’s what she is going to do….” and proceeded to walk them through the expectations….no breathing, her hands will draw up, she’ll look dead, and we’ll talk her through breathing through it.” It took about 60 seconds….and my body did exactly what she said. My co-workers said it was like watching someone die before your eyes.
On the backside of the seizure and about 4 weeks after – the Lord gave me the word intimacy. Holy Spirit was saying – Masi I was there, to your left & right, behind & in front of you…..but oh sweet daughter of mine – I was IN YOU and WITH YOU….I seized with you! Its a great reminder in your writing that He is there and our God can do what no one can do for us…..be IN us and feel every shake from the Inside Out. That’s the most comforting truth!
LikeLiked by 1 person
I love you so much Masi! I remember you telling me that. That is so scary but having someone to walk those watching through it… In you AND with you… I love that. Truly the most comforting truth!
LikeLike
Cute doggy! Wonderful post! I’m thankful God is with us always, even on the hard days.
LikeLike
Thanks Dawn 😊 Me too. I can’t imagine going through life, especially right now, without Him! Hope you are well!
LikeLiked by 1 person
All is well! Thank you! Blessings to you and your family! Be safe. 💛
LikeLiked by 1 person