November was honestly a dark month. Does anyone else feel that way? The election felt really heavy. Waking up every day checking the news became an addiction.
The reality that COVID-19 had been a part of our lives for well over 8 months began to really sink in. I hit a wall. Another month of job hunting. Another month of social distancing. Another month of masks, of solitude, of fear.
At church this Sunday, the pastor talked about the fruit that comes from taking a step away from the hustle and bustle of the city and walking into the wilderness.
Wilderness can be hard and lonely. I’m someone who has lots of thoughts spinning constantly. I have a hard time quieting my mind and spirit, so in some ways I’ve seen the Lord through new lenses this year. While the wandering through the wilderness may feel hopeless, today I have felt really encouraged in the fact that sometimes it takes having God remove all the distractions in order for me to seek Him out.
I’ve tried to seek out just about every comfort the world has to offer this year, but it’s been a lot harder to find distractions in 2020 with everything shut down. I’ve been angry with God. I’ve been upset, disappointed, confused, but I know my God is not a God of confusion. He is a God of peace, of power, of perfection and I have to wake up every day and choose to believe He is who He says He is.
You either consume faith or fear each day. Every morning when our feet hit the floor and we begin our day we walk in faith or wallow in fear. I’ve been wallowing a lot in fear lately.
But this morning, I chose faith. I chose a God that hasn’t forgotten or forsaken me. I choose to consume more of what fills my spirit, not what feeds the fears within me.
2020 is ending. And who’s to say 2021 will be any easier? Choosing to place my trust in the Father doesn’t make for a life without trials, but it does make for a life that can withstand the storms.
Everyone then who hears these words of mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house on the rock. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house, but it did not fall, because it had been founded on the rock. And everyone who hears these words of mine and does not do them will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand. And the rain fell, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell, and great was the fall of it. – Matthew 7:24-27
And if today you feel like fear has been all consuming and you can’t find the fresh air you need, please message me. I’m always here for anyone and everyone and would love to pray for you.
Turn off the TV. Open the Word. Go for a walk and talk with God. Listen to an encouraging podcast. Talk with a friend. Allow yourself to flourish.
Happy Holidays friends!